Dear Poem: Poem 3 of NPMC

Since it is now the 12th and this is only my 3rd poem for the challenge, I'm not making very good time in this first half of the month. But I am still enjoying myself, when I catch my breath and write. Here is poem 3, if you can suffer another piece of writing about writing, give it a read.

NPMC2015 Poem 3:

"Dear Poem"

How much I love you
is determined by time

At first I don't get you
It's like I'm meeting you in the dark
and then a light comes on
and you're everything I was looking for
everything in that moment that I needed

and I love you

and I want to keep you
keep you to myself.
No sharing.
Just go over you over and over

And then I try to change you
just a little
just a lot
no just a little
and I'm happy again because you seem whole

Then time passes
maybe an hour
maybe a day
and then I don't love you so much

I fear for you

Others might not get you
they might not understand our complicated relationship
or they might make it more complicated
No, that's not it

I just don't like you
you're nothing but a bunch of words
meaningless words strung together
ugh, it is so jarring
the bare bones of you
there's not poetry in you

So I must leave you
abandon you
let others think
what was I thinking when I gave life to you

And then more time passes
I forget you
You wouldn't think you'd forget something
you had such an intimate relationship with
but I do
I forget you

And then more time
just time
time between me and you

and again I see the heart in you
the beauty in you
the me in you
the moment you escaped my mind
and became real

and I think
how did something like you come from me
and it doesn't matter if you're not good
not real good
not good good
because you are mine

You are mine and
even when I hate you
I love you